I'm so stupid, I mean really who was i trying to kid? In the end all I did was fool myself.

I gave you all of me and you tossed it all aside.

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough
and that I only gave you everything I had.

good luck out there because you won't find this.

What are you supposed to do when the thing that makes you hurt, is the only thing that can take away the pain?
Do you go back for more, knowing that the moments you feel so happy, so fufilled will be replaced with feelings of self doubt and emptiness?
Are those moments of complete happiness worth it if all that follows is pain?

You wish you didn't care.
You wish it never happened.

"I can't do this anymore" you keep telling yourself that...maybe someday you'll have had enough.
You told yourself that yesterday, last week, a month ago...it never works.

Everyone's telling you to stop, you're making a mistake. But you don't care. They're all wrong, it's defferent even though you know it's not.

You hold tight to that hope that it will change this time. How can you feel like this, if there isn't something there?
Time and time again, you're proven wrong. Each time feeling emptier than the last. Thinking when will you learn, when will you realize it's not worth it and things won't change no matter how much you want them to.

When you're ready to let go, you will but until then that emptiness eat away at you until you feel like there's nothing left.

You don't deserve this, so stop putting youself through it, decide "i've had enough..."

why can't it be august 22?

i'm ready to get out of here.

p.s. how about you get over yourself, it's not all about you either.

kthnnxbye

fuck this.

I'm done caring.
go do your stupid shit.
go fuck up your life.
i'm over it.

but when you realize what you've done, and what you've lost don't expect sympathy from me.

with every hit, you push me further away.
and the sad thing is, you don't seem to care.

go ahead and throw away 8 years of friendship.

i hope it's fucking worth it.